Did you miss me? Did you even notice I was gone?
Regardless, I missed you my blogging pals and I am happy to be back in action just in time for this wonderful Christmas season. Yay!
As you may know, from my previous post, I have been enveloped in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) during the month of November. A task that took me begrudgingly away from my blog and all of you.
However, this was the kind of break that I really benefited from, I stretched my creative limitations and expanded the barriers of what I thought was possible for myself. The true success in completion if you ask me.
And in the end, yes I did it! I completed the challenge, write 50,000 words during the month of November.
I simply had to share this dose of small creative joy with you all, and share how I felt during this process. Maybe you too are looking for that extra push to go out on a limb and follow a dream, expand your own boundaries and create a crazy goal for yourself and accomplish it.
When I was younger before thoughts of boys, bills and business clouded my mind I would sit and write for hours and hours. I wrote poems, short stories, I would start and not finish many a novel.
I simply loved to write, and obviously, I still do.
Then it all stopped…
So what happened? Well, I have no idea really, I mean life got in the way I guess. When I started blogging my passion for writing was once again sparked, and I realised the true importance of feeding my passions no matter what they were. That’s why I take the time to blog because I know it’s something that is good for my mind, body, and soul.
But my true dream has always been… gulp…
To write novels. There it is it’s out there.
To sit lonely and creatively driven mad in some desolate cabin in the woods, a smoky Parisian cafe or a crowded hipster coffee shop. Writing and pining over the development of characters and uncharted worlds. A romantic dream of whimsical me.
So what has been stopping me from achieving this enchanting dream of mine?
Time & confidence.
The first hurdle to overcome and finish my first NaNoWriMo was taking the time to actually write. That meant time away from my blog, time send in coffee shops or waking up early on weekends. It meant taking time away from social obligations to write instead.
It wasn’t actually difficult to do when I made writing the priority. As I mentioned that is kind of my dream. In most circumstances, I would rather be writing anyway. So it kind of came down to me needing to prioritize taking the time to do what I really love, something we all struggle with surely.
The second hurdle was my lack of confidence.
You see, I often compared myself to my favorite authors which of course made me feel like a small worthless illiterate fool who is not even worthy of trying. Obviously, that is a slippery and dark slope, but seriously my inner critic is a terrible ogre.
So my solution? I decided that for the month of November I would take the comparing and competing out of the equation all togeather. I silenced my inner critic for the time being and decided to write with no filter at all.
The result? A very rough and messy first draft of something, start till finish. What a journey it was. When I started everything was one way and when I finished it was all another way. I am sure as I begin to edit the mess of my first drafted novel it will be changed many more times in between.
What a mess of beautiful words and ideas all crafted by little old me.
I have never finished a novel before, I have never finished a novel in one month before. Two things that at the beginning of this month I did not think I would ever be able to do. But here I am, smiling in my small success, a win against for my inner critic. *$#* you ogre!
This completion has given me the confidence to add more outlandish goals to my list.
Like, edit my ridiculous first draft for example.
So to you my beautiful and supportive blogging friends I say this… Why not make a crazy goal and go for it? It might start as one thing and end as a better thing. Who knows your perspective of your own abilities may change in the process.
Really what’s wrong with all that? It’s not as scary as you think!
So what’s your secret dream?
Now that I am back are you all ready for some festive fun? Stay tuned for your invite to the Scale it Simples Festive Feelings Blog Party!